maybe...

i dont know if its not enough time with you... more?
or i dont know
i havent been able to concentrate
i have been feeling saturated over crap
stressed,
overwhelmed by just anything,
i think i miss my family, but i shouldn't
i think i miss my friends, but maybe its just me
maybe its that time of the month,
the thing is i've been too sensitive for me to control
i've never felt like this,
so weak, so exposed,
but exposed to what? weak because??
nothing harms me... yet im still hurting,
i think i miss my family,
sometimes i feel alone, like if for any reason
you were to desappear i would be totally and completely alone...
it scares me,
i think thats it, im scared,
afraid of being alone, of losing you and ending up with nothing,
i've thought about the child,
it would be the perfect company, but im not ready yet,
not mentally, not phisically, not emotionally... not yet...
i still dont feel worthy, im still hesitating,
im still guilty, im still lost...
anyways im not ready to quit smoking,
im not making excuses, im being resonable...
im being honest,
i must say maybe its all the exercise i've been doing,
its bringin out my soft side... jejeje...
or maybe im just homesick... but then again i am home...
maybe i just miss my friends...
i love my friends,
a part me is with you guys, maybe thats the part im missing...
i think im just confused, or i think i just needed to tell you guys
how much i've missed you and to hope you know even though we're not
together we will always be together at heart... i love you fuckers!!! :(


(why is it when you express something sord of big you write in small letters?)

Att: kaco...

hACE uN tIEMPO qUE nADA mAS sOMOS tU y yO
mE eNCANTA qUE sE cOMO pIENSAS
mE fALTA tODAVIA pARA pODER dOMINARTE
pERO aUN tE hAGO sONREIR

nO hAY nADIE eN eL mUNDO cOMO yO
nO hAY nADIE eN eL mUNDO cOMO tU
nINGUNA pAREJA cOMO nOSOTROS

yA nO sOMOS uNO
sOMOS dOS eN uNO...




mE aND yOU wE'RE mENT tO bE
cUZ oNLY yOU cAN sET mE fREE
iN yOUR eYES i rEST
iN yOUR aRMS i dREAM
iN yOUR lIPS mY dESIRES
eVERYTHING tHATS yOURS iS mINE
tWO bODIES oNE hEART
mE & yOU nEVER aPART...

aFTER aLL tHIS tIME fINALLY
i tHINK wE'VE bECOME oNE
oNE mIND, tWO bODIES
oNE hEART, tWO sOULS

nOW yOU wALK bESIDE mE,
nOT iN fRONT OF ME nOR iN bACK oF ME
iN yOUR pLACE, mE iN mY pLACE
wICH mAKES aNY pLACE tHE pERFECT pLACE
jUST bECAUSE wE'RE tHERE tOGETHER, lITERRALLY

i hAVE nEW fRUSTRATIONS
nON lIKE bEFORE
nOT pERSONAL, nOT eMOTIONAL,
jUST sHIT tHAT hAPPEN
nO tEARS, nO fEAR, nO gRIEF
bECAUSE i'VE nOT lOST
bUT tO sOON tO sAY i'VE wON

i hAVE tEN mONTHS
yET iT fEELS lIKE tEN yEARS
mY eXPERIENCES wITH tHY aRE sO iNTENSE
i fORGET i mET yOU yESTERDAY
tIME mOVES fAST bUT rEALLY iTS nOT
iTS jUST tHE tHRILL oF oVERWHELMING eXPERIENCES
oNE aFTER aNOTHER tHAT lEAD yOUR mIND
cONFUSING tIME wITH tO mUCH eXPERIENCE

i'VE lEARNED tHAT dECISIONS
aREN'T tO bE mADE wITH ♥
bUT wITH tHE coMBINATION oF
tHE mIND aND tHE sOUL
tRUST yOUR aNIMAL iNSTINT
tHEY nEVER fAIL tO pROTECT yOU fROM hARM
iTS yOUR oNLY dEFENSE mECHANISM

i cAN'T sAY tHAT iM cOMPLETLY sATISFIED
i sTILL nEED mORE, i dESERVE mORE
bUT i aKNOWLEDGE i hAVE mORE
bUT tHAT dOESN'T mEAN i sHOULD fOLD
iT jUST mEANS yOU sHOULD pRY
aND tRY tO fULLFILL tHE eMPTINESS
cAUSED bY yOU,

pOR tU dESCUIDO
mI cORAZON fUE hERIDO
yA lO pEGASTE?
eMPIEZA a lLENAR lOS cHIVOS... sIEMPRE hAY cHIVOS...

i wANT to sIT oN a bENCH lOOK aT tHE bEACH
aND nOTICE tHAT i'VE gROWN oLD wITH yOU...