maybe...

i dont know if its not enough time with you... more?
or i dont know
i havent been able to concentrate
i have been feeling saturated over crap
stressed,
overwhelmed by just anything,
i think i miss my family, but i shouldn't
i think i miss my friends, but maybe its just me
maybe its that time of the month,
the thing is i've been too sensitive for me to control
i've never felt like this,
so weak, so exposed,
but exposed to what? weak because??
nothing harms me... yet im still hurting,
i think i miss my family,
sometimes i feel alone, like if for any reason
you were to desappear i would be totally and completely alone...
it scares me,
i think thats it, im scared,
afraid of being alone, of losing you and ending up with nothing,
i've thought about the child,
it would be the perfect company, but im not ready yet,
not mentally, not phisically, not emotionally... not yet...
i still dont feel worthy, im still hesitating,
im still guilty, im still lost...
anyways im not ready to quit smoking,
im not making excuses, im being resonable...
im being honest,
i must say maybe its all the exercise i've been doing,
its bringin out my soft side... jejeje...
or maybe im just homesick... but then again i am home...
maybe i just miss my friends...
i love my friends,
a part me is with you guys, maybe thats the part im missing...
i think im just confused, or i think i just needed to tell you guys
how much i've missed you and to hope you know even though we're not
together we will always be together at heart... i love you fuckers!!! :(


(why is it when you express something sord of big you write in small letters?)

Att: kaco...