mY iNSIDE...

iM iN tHIS pLACE...

tHIS dARK, cOLD pLACE...
wHERE i cANT sEE,
nOR hEAR,
i cAN bEARLY bREATHE...

iM iN tHIS pLACE...
i'VE bEEN hERE bEFORE, yES,
i rECOGNIZE tHE hUMIDITY iN mY eYES,
i tHOUGHT i'D nEVER cOME bACK hERE...

lAST tIME aROUND wAS uNFORGETABLE,
yOU kiLLED mY dESIRED cHILD...

i tHOUGHT i'D nEVER cOME bACK hERE aGAIN,
wITH tHE sILENCE,
wITH tHE bURDEN, tHE sORROW,
tHE pAIN...

bUT iM hERE aGAIN,
aS oF dESTINY oR sIMPLY mE,
aND i cAN'T sPEAK,
i dON'T fEEL...

i hAVE sO mUCH tO sAY,
bUT nOTHING cOMES oUT,
i hAVE sO mUCH tO fEEL,
yET i fEEL bLANK...

i nEED tO bREAK oUT oF tHIS pLACE,
iTS hARDER tHEN bEFORE,
bECAUSE tHIS tIME,
yOU kILLED mE...

i dON'T wANT tO tALK,
i doN'T wANT tO lISTEN,
i jUST wANT tO sTARE aT nOTHING,
tHINK oF nOTHING,
fEEL nOTHING...

i'VE lOST aNOTHER pART oF mE,
sEEMS lIKE eVERYTIME i vISIT hERE
sOMETHING sTAYS...

tHIS iS nOT mY wILL, sHIT hAPPENS...



aT lEAST nOT fOR mE...

LeSSON nUMBER 24...

pEOPLE wILL aLWAYS dISAPPOINT yOU...

aFTER yOU...

iS sOMETHING i cAN'T eXPLAIN,
sOMETHING i dON'T wANT tO tHINK aBOUT...
aFTER yOU, wHATS lEFT oF mE??
wHAT wILL bE oF mE??

yES, i wILL gET uP...
yES, i wILL gET oVER yOU... eVENTUALLY...
i wILL nOT dIE...
bUT wHAT wILL bE lEFT oF mE???

i'VE gIVEN yOU mY tHOUGHTS,
mY hEARTBEATS,
mY bODY,
mY sOUL,
mY fUTURE,
my hAPPINESS,
mY sORROWS,
eVERY iNCH oF mE rEEKS oF yOU,
yOU dID nOT aSK fOR tHIS,
iT jUST hAPPENED...

i hAVE nO rEGRESTS,
bECAUSE oF yOU i kNOW wHAT iTS lIKE
tO aCTUALLY lOVE sOMEONE,
wITHOUT bOUNDARIES, sELFLESS,
i'VE cONCENTRATED sO mUCH oN yOU,
i eVEN fORGOT aBOUT mE,
mY fRIENDS, mY lIFE, mY fAMILY...

tHIS tIME wAS dIFFERENT tHEN aLL tHE oTHERs,
tHIS tIME i sTILL fEEL wARMTH wHEN i sEE yOU,
i sTILL hAVE bUTTERFLIES wHEN yOU tOUCH mE,
i sTILL mELTdOWN aT tHE sOUND oF yOUR vOICE,
tHIS wILL nEVER cHANGE,
nO mATTER wHAT yOU dO tO mE...
mY fEELINGS sTAY iNTACT, bECAUSE tHEYRE tRUE...

lIKE i wILL aLWAYS bE fOR yOU...



yOUR tHE mAN tHAT i dREAM oF,
tHE mUSIC iN mY eARS,
tHE sMILE iN mY fACE,
tHE bRIGHT lIGHT iN mY eYES,
tHE sPACE bETWEEN mY wORDS,
tHIS iS wHAT yOU mEAN tO mE...

aFTER yOU, tHERE wILL nEVER bE aNYONE eLSE,
eMOTIONALLY aT lEAST,
bECAUSE aFTER yOU, i wILL bE bLANK iNSIDE,
mY hEART fOR nO ONE,
bECAUSE eVEN tHOUGH i dONT rEGRET wHAT i fEEL, oN tHE cONTRAIRE,
gRATEFULL fOR kNOWLEDGE,
i dONT wANT tO eVER bE sO dEPENDENT oF aNOTHER hUMAN bEING iN mY lIFE...

iT'S bETTER tO hAVE fELT aND fAILED tHEN tO nEVER hAVE fELT aT aLL...

aFTER yOU, iS yOU, aND yOU... aND iF iTS nOT yOU iT wILL bE jUST ME...

mE mYSELF aND i...

sO iN rESULTS oF oUR eLECTION wEEKEND
i mUST sAY...
i'VE lEARNED tHAT tHINGS nEVER cHANGE...
uNLESS yOU aDMIT tHERE iS sOMETHING,
nOTHING eVER cOMES oUT tHE wAY yOU pLANNED iT,
sOMETIMES wORSE,
OTHER tIMES fOR tHE bEST,
bUT yOU alWAYS lEARN sOMETHING,
tHATS tHE oNLY tHING yOU gAIN,
eXPERIENCE, kNOWLEDGE,
fOR nEXT tIME...

bUT wHAT iF nEXT tIME hAPPENS tHE sAME sHIT...
wHAT iF nEXT tIME yOU dO tHE sAME tHING,
wHAT dO yoU gAIN???
eXPERIENCE, mORE?!?!?!! wHAT fOR???
iF yOU dIDN'T lEARN tHE fISRT tIME...
wHY tRY sECONDS...

i'VE bUMPED iNTO tHE sAME rOCK
a cOUPLE oF tIMES, gUILTY!
bUT iTS mADE mE cOLDER...
wITH mE...

i rEPRESS mY fEELINGS...
iNSTEAD oF gUARDING tHEM, sTUPID mE...
iTS lIKE i dECIDED tO fORGET tHEY eXIST,
wHICH iS wORSE,
bUT i'LL lEARN fROM tHAT tOO...

i kNOW tHERE sOMETHING fOR mE...
jUST fOR me...
uNTIL tHEN tHIS iS wHAT i dESERVE...

i kNOW dEEP iNSIDE sOMETHING aWAITS fOR mE...
iTS bIGGER aND sTRONGER tHEN mE...
sO i'LL sEE iT, aND bELIEVE iT...
i hAVEN'T lOST aLL fAITH...
tHEREFORE aLL i hAVE tO dO iS wAIT, pATIENTLY...
cUZ nO gOOD dEED gOES uNPUNISHED,
aND eVEN tHOUGH i'VE hURT sO mUCH...
i dON'T tHINK i'VE eXILED mYSELF tOTALLY fROM hAPPINESS & fREEDOM...
fROM mY dREAMS, fROM mY pAST... fROM wHAT i wANT fOR mY fUTURE...

i aWAIT fOR mE... eVEN wHEN nOBODY eLSE dOES...
i fORGIVE mE... fOR aLL tHE tHINGS i'VE dONE...
wHEN yOU dON'T...
cUZ oNLY i hAVE tHE pOWER tO mOVE oN...
eVEN wHEN i fEEL eVERYTHING eLSE sTOPPED...

i dONT wANT tO lOSE wHATS lEFT oF mY sENSATIVITY...
aND bECOME nUMB...

aLL yOU hAVE tO dO iS bREATH... aND bELIEVE...



i rEALLY wANT a dOG...

**kARMA**

Weren't you the one that said, that you don't want me anymore.
And how you need your space, and give the keys back to your door.
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me.
But still you said that love was gone, and that I had to leave.

Now you, talkin bout a family
Now you, sayin I complete your dream
Now you, sayin I'm your everything
You confusin me
What you say to me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.

Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me

I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
And when you came home, you'd always have some sorry excuse.
And explainin to me, like I'm just some kinda fool
I sacrifice the things I want to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me, you never come through

Now you, wanna be a bond of me (eyyy)
Now you, have so much to say to me (heyy)
Now you, wanna make time for me
What you do to me.
You confusin me
Don't play with me
Don't play with me.

Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me

I remember when
I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you
Til 3 o'clock in the morn
Night after night
Knowin sumthing goin on
Wasn't home befo me
You was, you was gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy, but believe me.
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceived me.
And never do what u was supposed to do
No need to hose me fool, cause I'm ova you

Cause what goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
Now who's cryin, desirin to come back to me

What goes around, comes around.
What goes up, must come down.
It's called Karma baby.
And it goes around.

hA!

mUSIC iS

a wAY oF eXPRESSING eMOTIONS

iT pROVIDES yOU wITH tHE wEIRDEST sENSATION

iNSIDE aND oUT oF yOUR bODY,

iT tRANSPORTS yOU tO tHE pLACE

wHERE yOU eXACTLY wANNA bE...

iT bRINGS oUT yOUR tRUE cOLORS, eMOTIONS,

sECRETS... iTS a wAY oF aRT...

iTS a wAY oF sINNING aND fORGIVING...

cRY oR LaUGH, mUSIC iS aLWAYS wITH uS...

LiFE LeSSON...

aFTER hAVING tHE WEIRDEST sUMMER,

i mUST sAY, i lEARNED a fEW tHINGS aBOUT lIFE, lOVE, fRIENDSHIP...

nEVER gIVE uP oN sOMETHING yOU bELIEVE iN...

iM nOT tHE sAME pERSON i wAS lAST sUMMER,

sUMTIMES i tHINK iM wORST...

sUMTIMES i tHINK i jUST gOT sMATTER,

bUT bECAUSE i kNOW mORE,

i gET fUCKED uP mORE...

bECAUSE i sEE mORE , i hURT mORE,

cUZ iTS nOT jUST lOOKING, iTS uNDERSTANDING wHAT yOUR lOOKING aND rEACTING tOWARDS iT...

i'VE dECIDED tO bE hAPPY nO mATTER wHAT hAPPENS...

anD fOR wHATS lEFT oF tHE sUMMER i waNT tO sTICK mY fEET iN sAND...

aND fORGET tHAT iM mY oWN wORST enEMY...

aND bECOME mY bEST fRIEND...

[[[[ tHIS hAS bEEN tHE bEST sUMMER oF mY lIFE jUST bECAUSE yOU rEALIZED wHO i
aM... aND rECOGNIZED hOW iMPOSSIBLE iT iS bREATHING wITHOUT mE...]]]