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May 19, 2008

mE mYSELF aND i...




sO iN rESULTS oF oUR eLECTION wEEKEND
i mUST sAY...
i'VE lEARNED tHAT tHINGS nEVER cHANGE...
uNLESS yOU aDMIT tHERE iS sOMETHING,
nOTHING eVER cOMES oUT tHE wAY yOU pLANNED iT,
sOMETIMES wORSE,
OTHER tIMES fOR tHE bEST,
bUT yOU alWAYS lEARN sOMETHING,
tHATS tHE oNLY tHING yOU gAIN,
eXPERIENCE, kNOWLEDGE,
fOR nEXT tIME...

bUT wHAT iF nEXT tIME hAPPENS tHE sAME sHIT...
wHAT iF nEXT tIME yOU dO tHE sAME tHING,
wHAT dO yoU gAIN???
eXPERIENCE, mORE?!?!?!! wHAT fOR???
iF yOU dIDN'T lEARN tHE fISRT tIME...
wHY tRY sECONDS...

i'VE bUMPED iNTO tHE sAME rOCK
a cOUPLE oF tIMES, gUILTY!
bUT iTS mADE mE cOLDER...
wITH mE...

i rEPRESS mY fEELINGS...
iNSTEAD oF gUARDING tHEM, sTUPID mE...
iTS lIKE i dECIDED tO fORGET tHEY eXIST,
wHICH iS wORSE,
bUT i'LL lEARN fROM tHAT tOO...

i kNOW tHERE sOMETHING fOR mE...
jUST fOR me...
uNTIL tHEN tHIS iS wHAT i dESERVE...

i kNOW dEEP iNSIDE sOMETHING aWAITS fOR mE...
iTS bIGGER aND sTRONGER tHEN mE...
sO i'LL sEE iT, aND bELIEVE iT...
i hAVEN'T lOST aLL fAITH...
tHEREFORE aLL i hAVE tO dO iS wAIT, pATIENTLY...
cUZ nO gOOD dEED gOES uNPUNISHED,
aND eVEN tHOUGH i'VE hURT sO mUCH...
i dON'T tHINK i'VE eXILED mYSELF tOTALLY fROM hAPPINESS & fREEDOM...
fROM mY dREAMS, fROM mY pAST... fROM wHAT i wANT fOR mY fUTURE...

i aWAIT fOR mE... eVEN wHEN nOBODY eLSE dOES...
i fORGIVE mE... fOR aLL tHE tHINGS i'VE dONE...
wHEN yOU dON'T...
cUZ oNLY i hAVE tHE pOWER tO mOVE oN...
eVEN wHEN i fEEL eVERYTHING eLSE sTOPPED...

i dONT wANT tO lOSE wHATS lEFT oF mY sENSATIVITY...
aND bECOME nUMB...

aLL yOU hAVE tO dO iS bREATH... aND bELIEVE...



i rEALLY wANT a dOG...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Estoy sintiendo que en realidad me estas escuchando, i'm really happy 4 u; but i'm really sad because i feel that something happen this weekend.

I've learned some things from u 2... That's why i've loved u since the day i met u! It's ur personality, so strong. Las personas k te ven por 1era vez, se quedan impresionadas con tu belleza y tu personalidad; but when they start 2 get 2 know u... WOW... it's incredible the way u're inside. tanta madurez y tan poca toma de decisión, tanta belleza y tan fácil de engañar, tanta amistad y tan poca credibilidad, tan difícil y k tan fácil te vas por el lado incorrecto.

Dont become irrational now. Now its the time to have faith in u, 2 belive that u can go on by urself, 2 belive that u can move on.

Its incredible how the little things are the ones that makes u grow stronger & makes u believe that u're the only one that needs 2 love u, u're the only one that needs 2 take care of urself, u're the only one that can make everything work out in ur life... & that u're the only one that can decide whats best 4 u and ur life.

Remember that now it's the time to change things, now that u can... later could be 2 late. What if he gets u pregnant? r u fuckin out of ur mind?! Move on before its 2 late. Recuerda k no podrás mirar atrás, y pensar en los what if's!?

Don't fall for his lies, don't fall for his presents, don't trust him ur life; it's not safe around him... it's only safe around u.


P.S.: I will always love u!

Anonymous said...

Oh! i forgot... u should get a dog! she'll confort u and she's going to stay with u when u need someone close. Trata de k sea hembra, para k te sientas identificada con ella. Sientes como ella te siente y te percibe y está triste cuando estás triste y está felíz cuando estés feliz.

A toy dog! ok? :)

Carolina De La Cruz said...

im tryin to express myself lo mas ke pueda
para ke no se me kede atorado ahi
como todo lo demas... :D